januar 2012

It's not hard to sacrifice something for someone but it's hard to find that someone who deserves your sacrifice

Remember that today you can not only make a difference in your own life but in the life of others. Stay positive and true to yourself, you never know when you're making a memory. <3

Englejenta mi (Leserhistorie)

Mamma's siste ord til deg

Du fikk en tøff start på livet vennen. Men du kjempet deg opp å frem. Jeg husker jeg satt ved siden av deg i sengen din når du var på ditt svakeste, og jeg tenkte med meg selv. Nå får det bære eller briste. Det er en stygg tanke, men tanken på deg ligge der og ha vondt var u-utholdelig for meg som. Men du ville ikke la meg tenke slik. Du var en fighter, sterk som en løve. Dagene gikk og du ble bedre, heldigvis. 

Jeg husker dagen jeg fikk ta deg med hjem, jeg har aldri vært så glad i hele mitt liv. Jeg fikk ta deg med hjem og vise deg stolt frem. Og jeg var så utrolig stolt av deg, samtidig som jeg var så utrolig redd for å miste deg. 

Du vokste deg til å bli en god og omtenksom, men sta liten jente. Akkurat som meg. Jeg kunne allerede nå se så mye av meg selv i deg. Hjertet mitt hoppet et ekstra hopp hver gang du så på meg. Jeg kunne ikke begripe at jeg hadde laget noe så nydelig vakkert. Og at det var bare mitt. 

Jeg husker det første ordet du sa ?Mamma?. Da var du bare åtte måneder gammel. Jeg husker jeg ringte til mormor og gråt i telefonen. Jeg var så glad. 

Vi har så mange gode minner sammen med deg. Jeg husker spesielt godt i sommer da jeg var syk, du satt og våket over meg hele tiden. Slik som jeg en gang hadde våket over deg. Jeg husker hvor glad jeg følte meg for å være en del av livet ditt og for å få være i nærheten av deg. Og jeg er så takknemlig for at jeg fikk være en del av deg. Jeg er så glad for at akkurat jeg fikk bli mammaen din. Hadde ikke vært her den dag i dag hadde det ikke vært for deg. 

Du hadde verdens vakreste smil, og du smeltet mammahjertet mitt og løftet meg opp i skyene hver gang du smilte det. Det er så ufattelig vondt å vite at jeg aldri mer får se smilet ditt. 

Vi trodde du hadde vunnet, at du hadde overkommet et hinder. Tilbakefall. Tanken slo oss aldri. Vi var bare så utrolig glade for å få tilbringe tid sammen med deg. Men det utenkelige skjedde. Mammahjertet mitt blør.  Ord blir så fattige og alt mister mening. Å måtte stå her i dag og ta farvel med deg, det er så ufattelig vondt. 

Når jeg satt ved sykesengen din holdt jeg hånden din og sa ?Du må ikke puste så mye, men pust det du trenger.?  Du så på meg, helt tom i blikket. Du så hvor redd jeg var, og det var jeg. Jeg har aldri vært så redd før i hele mitt liv. Den redselen kommer jeg aldri noensinne til å glemme. Jeg var redd for å miste den største delen av meg.

 Jeg er så utrolig glad for tiden jeg fikk sammen med deg, selv om jeg med hele mitt hjerte skulle ønske jeg hadde så mye mer tid sammen med deg. De siste ordene jeg sa til deg smertet meg så inderlig mye, men jeg visste at du hadde sterke smerter og at du hadde kjempet det du orket. Det er begrensninger for hva en så liten kropp skal tåle.  ?Det er greit vennen, du kan få reise nå? mens jeg klemte hånden din. Få minutter etterpå var du borte for alltid.

Små føtter setter også spor, og jenta mi. Dine ble så utrolig dype. Du vil alltid være i hjertet mitt. Jeg savner deg så uendelig mye. Jeg vil bare holde deg og klemme deg. Men en ting til vil jeg si selv om du er gått, tusenhjertelig takk for tiden jeg har fått! 

Jeg elsker deg. 

Everyone tells me that I have changed but the truth is I have stopped living my life their way!

<3

Nobody has it easy, everybody has problems!

and you don?t know what they go through. So before you start judging, criticizing, or mocking, remember everybody is just like you, fighting their own battle! 

It is not a bad thing to follow what your heart dictates but it will be better if you can balance it with what your mind says

You can't control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward it.. That way, you'll be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.

If people are trying to pull you down. Be proud about it, because it only confirms that you are above them.

When someone lies to you, it is because they don't respect you enough to be honest, and they think you are to stupid to know the difference.

Everyone tells me that I have changed but the truth is I have stopped living my life their way!

The most painful goodbyes are the onces never said, but the heart allready know's it's over.

 

Sometimes youll never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory

After all the pain you put me through, I have finally realised it was far more painful being with you, than it is being without you.

We change, we adapt, we create new versions of ourselves. We just need to be sure that this one is an improvement over the last.

They say women talk twice as much as men. It's because men don't listen so women have to repeat themselves all over again.

No matter how serious life gets, you will constantly need the company of people whom you can completely be stupid with.

Missing someone when you are alone cannot be considered that you are IN LOVE ,but thinking of someone even when you're too much busy can be considered that you are.

I was told not to hurt the heart of those I love. But when I was so busy taking care of their hearts, I never noticed that my own heart was slowly dying.



I want a man who can tell me this..

The day when I'll go on my knees for another girl would be the day when I'll tie a shoe lace for our daughter. <3

The worst regret we can have in life is not for the wrong things we did...

But for the right things we could have done but we never did! 

People are like music; some speak the truth and others are just noise.

Do you know what's wrong with the word "Sorry"? It gives people the wrong idea that any mistake can be solved by a single word. But it really cant, making an effort showing your actually's sorry. Maybe fix things, maybe not. I've learned to forgive and forget, but that's so stupid. Im not god, and I dont have alzheimers either. I'll maybe forgive, but I'll always keep a list of names just in case. 

You gonna meet people who bring out the best in you and people who bring out the worst in you. Both kinds show you what you are capable of! So keep'em all. Sometimes you may need the worst sides to get your point across. Everything can in exact words be turned into something positive. For you! Maybe not for the person standing at the other side of the battlefield. 

I read a line the other day "Don't break anybody's heart, they have only one. Break their bones instead, they have 206". That's so stupid. Why brake someone's anything? If you cant be good to a person, why bother being around that person at all. I actually dont know why people keep hurting eachuder. Nothing good comes out of it. Karma always bites back, and she's a bitch. Just sayin'. 

If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing. If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you aren't worth it. 


So many ways to say, "I love you". Never enough to say how much.

Love is when you miss him even before he's gone,
When you could listen to him talk all night
And never get tired of hearing his voice,
When the sound of his name sends chills down your spine,
And when you see his smile the second you close your eyes!

<3

Romance is the fuel that keeps love burning hot.

Love is...
What makes a weak man brave and a king step off his throne.
Good times, bad times, Easy times, tough times -It comes in an instant.
And lasts three days after forever. That's what love is. ♥

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A bell is not a bell
until someone rings it,
a song is not a song
until someone sings it.

Love wasn't put
in the heart to stay,
for love isn't love
'til you give it away. ♥

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A Friend's Love says: If you ever need anything, Ill be there. True love says: You'll never need anything. Ill be there.

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Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it sees more it is willing to see less.

Love is like a mountain, hard to climb, but once you get to the top the view is beautiful. ♥


The deeper your scars, the more room there is to fill them up with love. Don?t hate your scars, appreciate their depth.

Sometimes you have to stop worrying, wondering, & doubting. Have faith that things will work out, maybe not how you planned, but just how it's meant to be.

Being yourself is what makes you attractive. Being something you're not makes you a liar, and relationships built on lies don't last.

Next time you're stressed, take a step back, inhale & laugh. Remember who you are & why you are here. You're never given anything in this world that you can't handle. Be strong, be flexible, love yourself & love others. Always remember to just keep moving forward. ♥

Don?t ask why people keep hurting you. Ask yourself why are you allowing them.

Understanding is much deeper than knowledge. There are many people who know us, but very few who understand us.

The biggest mistake I've made is letting some people stay in my life far longer than they deserved to.

The best way to get someone?s attention is to stop giving them yours. Always remember that. 

Truth hurts only once, but a lie hurts every time you remember it.



If it's important, you'll find a way. If it isn't, you'll find an excuse.

<3

"People don't leave because things are hard, they leave because it's no longer worth it"

I'm doing my best to remember how you made me happy, but every time I think of you, all I can remember is how much pain you made me suffer.

Jeg kommer ikke til å gi opp.. (Leserhistorie)

Jeg har en eks kjæreste, eller.. Vi var vel egentlig aldri kjærester på orntlig, men.. Han betyr utrolig mye for meg, og vi er veldig gode venner nå. Vi startet å date, men tiden tok oss igjen. Det var ikke nok tid, og det var ikke vår tid. Det var en hard sannhet og takle, for oss begge. Det var et hardt slag. Men når det er sakt så bygget vi et veldig godt vennskap. Jeg trang han, og han trang meg. Igår kveld satt jeg for meg selv og leste gjennom denne bloggen og så en leserhistorie som var så utrolig sterk, og jeg tenkte at jeg måtte vel også bare dele noen ord med allmenheten. For å fortelle ham hvor evig mye han faktisk betyr for meg.

Det var en veldig tung tid og kommer over han, jeg er ikke sikker på om jeg noen gang kommer til å komme helt over ham. Han pleier å si "Med tiden kansje det blir oss". Jeg har bare ikke tid eller ressurser til å sitte å vente, det er ikke meg. Sørgelig nok. Men jeg vet heller ikke om jeg er klar for å gi opp helt ennå? For hva om det virkelig er ment at en gang i fremtiden skal det bli oss, og så ga jeg opp? Det er bare fantasier og tanker som slår meg når jeg sitter helt alene. 

Jeg har grått mange tårer over dette, jeg har hørt på sanger og jeg har tenkt. Idag bestemte jeg meg for å vokse opp. Det finnes folk som har det så utrolig mye værre, og jeg har trossalt vert igjennom dette mange ganger før. Og da kom jeg meg gjennom. Hvorfor skulle denne gang være annerledes? Hva gjør denne gangen annerledes? 

Jeg vet at tiden ikke var inne for et forhold, men jeg vet også at begge trenger dette vennskapet og jeg vil stå ved hans side uansett. Jeg vil alltid ha telefonen klar hvis han trenger meg. Fordi jeg bryr meg. Fordi jeg vil ta vare på det solide vennskapet vi bygget opp. Jeg vil aldri endre mening, jeg ønsker det iallefall ikke. Han hjalp meg gjennom så utrolig mye, og det minste jeg kan gjøre er å hjelpe tilbake. Jeg kommer ikke til å gi opp.

Han trenger en person som kjenner han inn og ut, slik jeg gjør. Men han er samtidig en tøff nøtt å knekke. Han er en veldig åpen person på mange områder, men samtidig er han veldig lukket. Jeg håper og tror han vet at han kan stole på meg. Og at jeg alltid er her. Jeg har tro på ham. Jeg har virkelig det. 

Glad i deg vennen, håper du vet det!

 

You can never start the next chapter of your life, if you're too busy re-reading the last one.

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Sometimes the reason why we hold on to something so tight is because we fear something so great won't happen twice.

I'll never let you go, not without fighting.

If you lose a battle, dont quit. You can still win the war.



It sucks to know that a person is going to be fine without you..

But you know you will never be the same without them...

I'm doing my best to remember how you made me happy, but every time I think of you, all I can remember is how much pain you made me suffer. I dont want to remember you that way. It's just like. I don't have a choice. 

Iv'e been through many heartbreaks, but the silent once's. Like this one. This is the worst. And I cant even tell you how I feel, because.. I can't let myself. I can't let myself be that dissapointed. 

I'm fake? You know what? You're right. I put on this smile to cover up the pain and pretend nothing is wrong when in fact, I'm dying inside.


I really dont know if im strong enough for this..

Sometimes you have to start thinking, maybe some wishes just don't come true. And when that time comes, it hits you hard. It knocks you to the ground, over and over. And everytime.. I let myself fall. Im not a strong person, Im weak. The heart is the strongest and most important muscle in the body. Yet how can it break so easily? It takes just a little second to brake. 

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Trying to hate you is no use; it only reminds me of why I fell for you in the first place. And then again i realize, its not you that i hate, it's myself. I hate myself for letting me feel this way, for letting me go through this. Again.. 

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You don't walk into love, you fall in. That's why it's so hard to get out ...Well. What if you never get's out? You just make a way to live with it. A broken heart never stops beating, even though every heartbeat hurts so much, you just wish it would stop. 

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Enough is enough! Sometimes.. You just have to force yourself dealing with it, then and there. 




No one can change a person, but a person can be the reason someone changes

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Whenever quitting seems to be the easy way out, know victory is somewhere by the corner

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Sometimes people don't notice the things we do for them until we stop doing them.

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Små føtter setter også spor - Leserhistorie

Min søsters datter har gått inn i et nytt liv, ett nytt liv kalt døden. Hun fikk ikke leve mer en to år. Hva hadde den lille uskyldige jenta gjort for å fortjene en slik skjebne? Ingenting. Det er dessverre ikke vi som regjerer over liv å død. Jeg er enig med så mange små dikt jeg leser av og til. En klok forfatter skrev en gang; Det er alltid de beste som dør først, og der hadde han utrolig rett. Men hvem er egentlig noen til å kunne dømme hvem som skal få leve og hvem som skal dø? 

Jeg tror ikke på noen gud. Men jeg tror på at det finnes mer mellom himmel og jord en det vi vet om. Og som er ment til å være utenfor vår viten. Jeg tror på karma. Jeg tror at sjelen forlater kroppen og blir til noe. Men jeg vet jo ingenting. Ingen vet noe. Vi vet bare det vi har hørt. Det er ingen som vet. Mange forsker, men ingen vet helt sikkert hva som har skjedd før oss. Men jeg orker egentlig ikke tenke på det nå.

Det eneste jeg tenker på nå er ei lita jente (en liten engel) og hennes mor. Jeg husker jeg satt ved sykesengen til gojenta når hun var på sitt svakeste (..du må ikke puste så mye, men pust det du trenger) tenkte jeg. Jeg tenkte at da sparte hun kanskje litt tid, tid til å få være her lenger. Men så tenkte jeg på smerten, all den smerten en liten jente må gjennomgå. Og jeg tenkte. Burde ikke hun bare få fred? Og jeg vet det er en stygg tanke. Men jenta fortjener ikke og leve et helt liv i u-utholdelige smerter. Hun var så utrolig svak den siste tiden. Men hun har vært sterk. Det er jo grenser for hva en liten kropp skal tåle. Hun var en fighter, akkurat som mammaen. Det er en veldig bra egenskap. 

Jeg vil bare si noen ord avslutningsvis ?Jeg er utrolig glad for tiden vi fikk sammen med hjerteknuseren vår. Hun kunne forvandle alle og alt rundt seg til det positive. Hun kunne gjøre helvete om til himmel. Den jenta kunne flyttet fjell. Jeg var så utrolig glad i henne. Og hun har skrevet seg inn i hjertene våre og der vil hun alltid være. Vi kommer alltid til og være glad i henne og savne henne. Det kommer til å ta tid og vende seg til tanken at vi valgte og la henne fare, men vi kommer til å slå oss til ro med at hun endelig fikk fred?

Takk for alt, jenta mi! Tante Jeanett! 

Love and death!

...are two uninvited guests, when they will come, nobody knows but both do the same work, one takes heart and the other takes its beats. 

You know you have problems when you get in argument with yourself,

lose, and wont not to talk to yourself for the rest of the night! 

I'm not crazy, you're just jealous that the flying rainbow llamas gave me some gummy bear ice cream and you didn't get any

You're the one who's shoulder I want to cry on, but you're the reason for my tears. You're the one I want to hide behind, but you're the one I'm hiding from. 

Smile

...not to make others wonder what you're up to, but to let them know that no matter what chaos life throws at you, the happiness you have over rules!

You can..

You can show or tell someone what is right but many are those who will find it simpler to turn their cheek and be wrong; it's not because they don't know you're right, they just don't want to give up their excuse for being wrong

Sometimes it is better to be kind than to be right. We do not need an intelligent mind that speaks, but a patient heart that li

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us.




I'm not afraid to try again. I'm just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason!

Saying sorry doesn't always mean you admit that you're wrong, it only means that you value your relationship more than your pride. <3

Hiding your emotions is the worst thing you can do. Expressing them to the right person at the right time might change everythin


What you've done to me will soon be a part of my memory. I may forget the exact words you've said, but I will never forget the way you made me feel.

Beauty isn't being flawless, it's shining even through your flaws.

If a certain person in your life is making you feel more negative than positive, more cynical than open, more of a worse person than the day before, you need to let this person go, for your sake and probably his/her's as well.




People talk behind your "back", because they can't get "ahead" of you.

What you are is what you have been. What you?ll be is what you do now!

If you have a choice between me and her, choose her because if you really loved me there wouldnt be a choice.

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go.

With every breath you take someone just took their last. Stop complaining about what you have and be thankful for not having wor

Being a good person is like being a goal keeper: No matter how many goals you save, some people will remember only the one that you missed.

You don't need to be better than anyone else, you just need to be better than you used to be.

When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because it's the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares.

It's a lot harder to get someone out of your life than it is to let them in. So please be selective.

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Love

Love sacrifices are sometimes useless especially if that particular someone doesn't know to appreciate.They'll come to realize things when it's already too late

The worst thing is not being lonely, its being forgotten by someone you could not FORGET !

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You can never choose what you get in life, but you can choose how it affects you

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Truth is simple but the moment you try to explain it, it becomes difficult...

Having a million friends is not a miracle. The miracle is to have a friend who will stand by you when a million are against you.

Love is always a gamble, but waiting won't change the dice. Either you roll them now or you lose your turn.

-true saying!

"Don't BLAME people for DISAPPOINTING you. Blame YOURSELF for expecting TOO much"

It isn't the bad memories that make you sad, but the best ones that you can't bring it back.

Trust is a small word with a big concept

Every year, I realize how stupid I was the year before.

Love your parents. We are so busy growing up, we often forget they are also growing old.

<3 mamma og pappa

Twinkle twinkle little star, point me to the nearest bar!

When you don't tell the complete truth to a person, trying to not hurt them. You sometimes hurt them twice and even twice as hard. 

 

A smile on a person's lips does not mean absence of problems but an ability to deal with them.

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"You know what causes hurt? when somebody LIES? nope! it's when you BELIEVE."

-Stop believeing! Always stay with the facts. 

For all of the people who talk about me and think it's affecting me - i just sit back and think to myself.

- Damn I've got a fan club.

 

 

 

 

"Å bli eldre er obligatorisk, å bli voksen er valgfritt"

-og da jeg møtte deg, skjønte jeg vel det ganske bra!

The moment you give up, is the moment you let someone else win.

-that's why I wont let that happend. 

Life is what you make of it, you either play the game or the game plays you!

Usually, the game plays you. Just fight back. 

I've learned that the best way to prevent your heart from getting broken, is to act like you don't have one.

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Don't wait for the world to make you happy, if you want to be happy, then you alone are enough to make yourself happy.

:)

Sometimes we don't need advice, sometimes we just need somebody to listen.

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It's a lie to say you've let go of the past, nobody let go of memories!

Cause really, there's no such thing as forgetting, only acceptance. 

"Remember the golden rule: Those that have the gold make the rules."

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Close some doors. Not out of incapacity or arrogance, but because they lead you nowhere.

Although time seems to fly, it never travels faster than one day at a time. Each day is a new opportunity to live your life to the fullest... In each waking day, you will find scores of blessings and opportunities for positive change. Do not let your today be stolen by the unchangeable past or the indefinite future! Today is a new day ♥

Don't lose yourself in attempt to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you

We all deserve happiness, but sometimes it just takes a painful journey to help you find it, so that you can then truly cherish and appreciate it. Don't give up yet ♥

I don't have an attitude problem, I have a personality you can't handle.

:)

Don't try to understand everything. Because sometimes it's not meant to be understood, but to be accepted.

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When you know what you want and you want it badly enough, you will find the ways to get it.

<3

I love you

I love you because you care for me like no one else I know. I love the way I feel in your arms, so safe from dangers in the world. I love your eyes, so hypnotic and mesmerizing, beautiful to gaze into, and yet never revealing everything to me... I can't explain every way that I love you because that's impossible. But I can say I love you because you are you. 

Those last words...

I am sitting her all alone, rain?s pouring down around me, writing you this letter I should have been writing for a long time ago. I haven?t found the words, before now. And now. NOW! That?s a hard word to say. Because now, it?s to late. You?ve moved on. The problem is, you have to understand. I never had a lifetime to spend ON you, but I always had a lifetime to spend WITH you. I did not know how to say it, I couldn?t find word to describe, but now I have. That?s why I?m writing this, NOW! Tears filling up my eyes as I sit her, knowing you could be sitting here right next to me, look at me with your beautiful eyes and smile your compelling smile. And I know every time you smile that smile, I fell in love with you over and over again. 

The hardest part about losing you was that I didn?t just lose you, I lose myself. I did things. Awful things. Things I never in a million years I expected I would do. The reason is, you always picked me up again when I was down. You kept my head and my feet on the ground. When you were gone, there was no one left to do that. So I fell. And I fell hard. Like a bottle hit the ground. I broke into little pieces, and you weren?t there to pick them up. Its to late. The hardest thing to face is not the truth, it?s the pain beyond that truth. And that pain. It will cut you ?til the bone. Like a knife. Until you bleed. 

You should know I never gave you up. I was beside you in all you did, you just didn?t realized it. I watched you from a sideline. And do you have any idea how hard that was? I thought by my self that I had to set you free, and let you find what you thought you wanted. And maybe it was really what you wanted to. 

I could have taken on to the world with only one hand, if you just were there to hold the other one. I met a girl, she really helped me you know. She said to me ?Close some doors, not of incapacity or arrogance, simply just because they doesn?t led to nowhere?. Those words are painful, but I knew she was right. She really was. 

Your not only gone for me to have, your really gone this time. I guess heaven was needing a hero, somebody just like you. I know I needed you, but maybe haven was needing you more. I like to think that it was it. But why? Is there any reason why? Is there really ever any reason? I don?t think so. 

Sometimes you have to give up on people, not because you don?t care anymore, but because they don?t. I didn?t thought you care, but I was wrong. You did. You cared when no one else did. I?m so truly sorry that I was to blind to see that. I regret it every day, and I will for the rest of my life. I know you?re watching down on me right now, well. If you?re not busy hanging out and fooling around with all the other angels. Try turning heaven upside down. 

The last words I really want to say to you is. I only needed to love you twice in my life, that?s now and forever. And forever I will. Even if your not here. And I miss you. I miss you like crazy. And i truly wish you were here. 

Sleep tight! You deserve that. 

I could take on the world with one hand, as long as your there holding my other one.


Mormor. Iloveyou!

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